gosh, Hiromi still hasn’t txt’d me…i’m kinda feeling well, shit man. i don’t know. i can’t hold a girl can i? i’m a fuck stick. lol. fucking a man. well, guess what i’m now typing this post on? thats right, my laptop!! FUCK YEA! well, its a very, very nice lappy! Well. gosh, i’m really excited that it came. right now i am in one of my marine’s room, he has internet. we lan and etc…neat i guess. tommarow we go to Gunny’s house to have some party for christmas..wooh! man. so now i got some Learn Japanese cds and Brood War and Crimson Skies. Plays good on my lappy…can’t wait to get half-life and etc..well, fuck…I need to get back into some webmastering don’t i? gosh..mountian dew time and maybe sleep, i ain’t sure…you guys want to know something about me? i hold on to things that seem too good to be true alot and then it turns out that they are. i never really had a girlfriend due to the fact that i’m just not really made to hold a relationship. its not me right? its them? thats what people say to make me feel better…its what i tell myself to make it seem like i ain’t doing something wrong. i mean, trust me. i don’t cheat on girls. i thinks thats the worst things in the world, and i ain’t prude, and i don’t just get into relationships for just sex and i don’t use girls…so what am i doing wrong..nothing. its just me in general. i ain’t what they want. and i got to live with this right…perhaps i just ain’t strong enough to keep a relationship…no matter right. like i said, soon as i get back to the states, i won’t even get on aim or anything, i’ll probably just leave this page up with my email and check that every now and then….well, time for some brood war, pz!
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Dani
on December 23, 2004 at 4:28 pm
“so what am i doing wrong..nothing. its just me in general. i ain’t what they want.” That’s not true. I kept in touch with you, and you never wrote back. It took you a while to. I know you’re busy with everything, so I’m not blaming you, that’s not right to blame something on someone when it’s not their fault. I would have liked a relationship, but you were going to be gone for too long, and I can’t wait that long. You probably didn’t feel the same way about me anyways. Funny how I got here. I was remember the pics you showed to me and I came back here to check to see if you got new ones and I read this thingy. Anyways, talk to you later. ~Dani
christopher
on December 24, 2004 at 5:19 am
I told you about the site like, lots of times! Yea, being far away from a person you like is going to destroy any relationship. Distance is a murderer. Its quick and painless. Yea, when I got here, I was sent off quickly. Didn’t really get time to settle in much less get internet. Shit, I’ve been here for like 4 months now and I still don’t have internet and I would have gotten it by now. I JUST barely got a computer. I mean, fuck! I can’t do what I really like…Oh well. I’ll live.
initial
on December 24, 2004 at 12:50 pm
haha stop being a vagina.
ur gonna get sars over there with them girls.
Rachel
on December 24, 2004 at 9:49 pm
Chris,
It is Christmas eve and I am SA-Town again. Life is shit, but you know that. My grandma, the one you met, is dying and is expected to go any moment.It hurts bad. Other then that I have been doing amazing in school. A year ahead. Got a 3.9 and top of my Graphic’s classes. I am on track with my classes but ahead with the extras. I am planning on taking even more extra classes. Got to be way smart and well rounded. You know me, an over acheiver. Other then that I am part of a lot of honor societies, an RA for the dorms and even more done some modeling. Amazing ha? Check out what I have been doing. Not much for I have only taken two graphics classes but check out…this is where we turn in our assignments… http://www.design.siu.edu/students/boone07
I was not going to talk to you now or even talk to you again, for you said to stay away, but when I saw you were online and wanted to see if you were in town and then saw your away message I had to check out this website and when I read that post I had to respond. It is not the girls. It is you. You push them away when they get to close. You are mean to them. Evil pretty much and tell them that they would be better off without you. Man I cant count how many times you told me that. So yeah. You could have had me. You know that. And in a way you still do. In a way you always will. I do think about you aloff and on and pray for your safe keeping all the time. But just a little advice for an old old friend, let someone in someday. Truly let them and and dont be afraid of the sting. I know it is hard. But when you do that you will keep a girl and it will all be WELL worth it.
Merry Christmas old friend. And since I probally wont talk to you ever again, like you say, have a nice life.
peace out,
Boonie*