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Howdy! Let me start off by saying this post will probably be a more formal one. Alright, well, lets see, where to start.
Rachel, I am really sorry to hear about your Grandmother. When I met her, she seemed very caring and I really liked her. I enjoyed staying over and her hospitality was one of a kind. I hope for her to pull through, my prayers are with her and your family.
As far as life being shit, I do know this. Remember, death is easy, life is hard. Tell me who said that and you get a dollar. Hope your having fun in SA. I know I would. Happy Christmas Eve, and since its now Christmas for me, I hope your having a Merry Christmas. Life isn’t going to change for me now. I’m on a track that I expected and planned.
You being ahead by one year, having a high GPA and being on top of your classes doesn’t surprise me. I knew you’d do very well in school if you just put your mind into it. Your creaitivity isn’t one to be recokoned with. Your choices in the education department will only shine greater with every expectation and project that you challenge.
I know about you being in some societies, I know your an RA for the 12th floor, and modeling part is kinda new. I know that your still with Scott and a few more bits and bites of information. Suprised? Your not the only sophomore that is getting a major in Art at SIU in Carbondale. I guess you can say my reach extends itself over a vast area of the United States. Not to mention, I like to keep my finger over the pulse that was my previous friends or buddies. Don’t worry, I ain’t stalking, just watching…
I viewed your projects and your coming along great! I am quite amazed. Your work is quite impressive for someone with your knowledge. ( Side note: I suggest to everyone to view the work of Rachel @ http://www.design.siu.edu/students/boone07 ) I don’t even know how to do some of that stuff. Looks nice, keep up the good work Rachel. ( By the way, see my photography @ http://foto.fybix.net My skills are still growing )
Next, ok, so you didn’t know about this website. Odd because this is the second friend or previous friend of mine that just found out about this website. I mean, I had it on my away messages, profile, I even referenced to it plenty of times…I guess people’s lack of attention to detail comes to a point when you see someone online all the time right? Either way, this website should come of no surprise due to the fact that its been up for awhile. I could careless that no one visits it. Even though I get thousands of hits for some reason.
Now for the juicy part right? Yes, I did tell friends and love ones to stay away because I am bad news, but I doubt that I was mean. If I was mean, I didn’t mean to. I can be evil, but to a love one? I don’t think so. Perhaps, I had my thoughts, but those were kept locked up right? I look at myself now, and how I was back in the past. I was prude back then. Now, I want a relationship, but I realize that I choose a path that disables me to have one. I am following through with a plan that I had layed out for a few years. I am even more mature now then I was back then and I know that I was quite a fool for saying people should stay away from me. I did it as an emotional defense tactic. I have a few ides why I did, but you can guess for yourself ( leave feedback asking if you want to know my reason behind it… ) In all, I have faith in myself. I know in the end I will do whats right for myself and others. I have faith. Thats all I really need right? My mistakes in the past will haunt me, but if I choose to ignore them, they are quite powerless. :sigh:
Well, to end it…Nice to know you still think about a jerk like me every once in awhile. I think ALOT about people in my past. I wonder. Of course the “what ifs..” murder your self-esteem and destroy your plans for the future, but I keep those to myself and I only open that lock if I have nothing else to do. Talk is cheap, this all might not mean anything to you, and I can’t say I don’t care because I do care….if I feel that it will make me grow. Only accept that which values to you. Well, I hope you a Merry Christmas and by the sound of it, I guess this is the last time I talk “type” to you, so have a Happy New Years and a wonderful life.

-Luna